Poem - "A Corrected Mistake, A Changed Life"

Im sorry baby, for whatever I may have said.

Although it wasn't to you, it was somewhere inside ma head.

I felt like i was overtaken by the evil i had put aside,

but the love i had made me feel greater guilt inside.

I looked forward to see you on the bus,

but i was afraid to talk, unless it was only us.

I made a stupid decision, as i looked at the passing cars,

and thought about my life, and its numerous mental wars.

My homie shadows his pain, by smoking and fighting,

But i only need to see your smile baby.

I made the letter, and named the recipient too,

to my brother jin, whom I thought I only knew,

But he told me how selfish i was, and i got that i was a fool,

but his advice worked, and just as Ivy puts it "he seems cool."

He is the best at life's many experiences, but so are my other friends,

I am the imbecile that doesnt recognize, all these wonderous godsends.

Thinking no one cared, my life was almost finished,

but if i made that mistake, who could give me forgiveness?

Im happy to be thinkin straight after such a long time,

and not killing my self and paying for such a stupid crime.

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The movie I watched was powerful to you I told,

But not only in the theater, but as my day unfolds,

I realized that god made my night, that of gold,

The day ended great, and fed sweets to my soul,

as i heard that sweet voice, when through off her sweet tongue it rolled.

Talking out one issue, while understanding my role,

as a friend, but as an admirer i behold,

the beauty I see, after which god broke the mold.

Sadly i say, she isnt with me, either young or old,

But I only feel warmth from her, and im glad she never turned cold,

On me, and i say with what glee,

i enjoy being at least a friend to that lady.

It's love as a friend, but the truth must be told

As we saw in the subway wall, u guys said it was corny and old,

that quote about memories leaving but in my heart remains thee,

That isn't bullshit, that's the case with me for you baby.

--- Karup